I really just read this to fulfill the 2024 StoryGraph genre challenge, but I'm SO GLAD I found it on Libby! This memoir is fantastic, and I enjoyed every second of it. I've obviously heard of Nirvana and Foo Fighters, but I don't really know music and the people in the bands and such. (I've had several embarrassing situations surrounding my lack of musical knowledge over the years. šš« ) Anyway, I knew absolutely nothing about Dave Grohl before listening to this book, and now I at least know what bands he's been in. But seriously, it's such an enjoyable read, and I loved his voice and passion about music. I was moved to tears multiple times, and I found his story to be so poignant and intentional. And the way he talks about his daughters. š„¹ I'm a fan. Loved it.
Okay, I'm not a cowboy/country person in any way, but I FUCKING LOVE THIS BOOK. It's the best romance I've read in ages. This is the standard contemporary romances should be held to. Good mental health rep, GOOD MEN, a woman learning that allowing love/friends/family to be a part of her life is an amazing thing, grumpy (her)/sunshine (him), quality communication, and more.
Warning: you may stan hot cowboys after reading this book. (We still don't like country music, though.)
I originally wrote a whole other review for this book, but I decided to rewrite it and attempt to better express my thoughts. The short review for this book is that I did not enjoy one second of it; I think I can comfortably say that I hated it. It was a struggle to read from start to finish, and whether that was simply the authorās style of writing or the translation, Iām not quite sure. I picked up this book after someone on TikTok talked about it and explained the story of how the author wrote it while in prison ā the story about how he wrote the book and shared it amongst the other prisoners within pieces of dough/plastic was really interesting. Iād hoped this book would reflect that.
Pros: As someone who is actively trying to learn more about Palestine and its history of attempting to survive under a colonizing oppressor, I think this was an interesting way to tell a story of the resistance during the 1980/early 90s. I thought the way the main characterās (Kanāan) clandestine life was represented was well done; his thoughts while living alone and generally separated from the world around him and the people he was working to free were well depicted. That chaotic spectrum of all emotions. I liked the switches from storytelling to his internal monologue. Kanāanās perspectives of different events occurring in that region during his clandestine life (such as the Intifada and the Gulf War) were also fascinating, especially looking at them from the outside looking in like I was as the reader.
Cons: I found this book grossly misogynistic in ways that were so clearly written by a man. Thereās a level of male arrogance throughout the book that bleeds into parts of the story in infuriating ways; Kanāan clearly thinks heās better than everyone else because heās a clandestine operator in the resistance and has been so for almost a decade. I felt that he had this sort of derision toward anyone who chose a ānormalā life; this is especially seen in his long-held disdain toward his ex, Muna. This superior attitude really shone strongly throughout the book.
Mentioning Muna leads directly to the level of misogynistic themes throughout the book; the way Kanāan talks about women made me take a deep breath and roll my eyes more than once. Did he truly want LOVE, as one of his fundamental beliefs, or did he just want a housewife? He even expresses this at one point when suffering from a leg infection.
I think for me, one of the biggest things I struggled to connect with throughout the book is understanding what exactly Kanāan did as part of the resistance. Maybe this is something thatās just known or understood by one who lives in Palestine or who has taken part in any kind of resistance before. Maybe my own privilege and arrogance is showing? Iām not sure. Overall, however, I found it difficult for me to connect the work Kanāan talks about constantly to the actual resistance, because I never actually knew what he did. I felt like there was no connecting line that showed me or demonstrated what his work detailed. What did he write? How did he coordinate things? What was his purpose? What was he actually DOING? I felt like all his comrades were risking their lives more than he, because they were the ones to bring him food, communications, and even drive him from place to place. Iām finding it difficult to explain my feelings about this, so I hope it gets across.
Ultimately, this book was a bust for me. I found it excruciatingly difficult to read. A friend who has read pieces of it said it reads like an academic dissertation. I have not read an academic dissertation before, but I imagine itās true. The way the story and each chapter hopped around made it really difficult to follow; each chapter weād start in the present and then jump back to an earlier point in Kanāanās resistance life. The last few chaptersā¦.I donāt even know, honestly.
This is an excellent and very much needed prequel to the story of Lady Vice. It helps explain who she is in the present and where she came from. Hopefully her father and uncle āget taken care ofā in later books, because theyāre both vile fuckwits. I canāt say that I was sad to see Evered go; nope, not even a little bit. Whiny git. Iām really enjoying this series!
Side note: I still twitch at the way the clit gets called āher pearlā in this series. WhY.