⚠️ TW: mental health, drug abuse, alcoholism, domestic abuse, sexual assault, rape, ableism, homophobia, fatphobia, animal abuse, murder, suicide and brief mentions of infertility and miscarriages ⚠️ If you're looking for a dark and haunting read then this one is for you! This book follows Debs and her family when on Christmas Eve a nightmare jolts her awake, but little does she know her nightmare is just beginning as she finds a man in her kitchen wielding a knife. But it's not an intruder, it's her husband Marc. When they first got together their differences were what drew them together and sparked their whirlwind romance. Him an ex-army officer from an upper class family in London and her a fitness instructor who grew up above a pub in Nottingham. But now the differences are all that are left. Haunted by war, Marc screams in his sleep. And Debs hardly knows the person she's become. Yet, neither of them know what the other is capable of. This book had my heart in my mouth all the way through and whilst it was a really tough read in parts it was also a good one too. The various timelines gave a glimpse of the immense amount of threads within this story that lead to not only the progression of the relationship but also the downfall of their marriage. And despite not really liking Debs or Marc, I did like that it showed how they were both incredibly flawed and had their own toxic traits that lead to their explosive life. However, even though I enjoyed the timelines I did struggle with the older ones as they weren't in order and I think it would have helped the flow by taking the reader on the journey throughout their lives and relationship. Overall though this was a really good, compelling read!