idk what to say... so much suffering and for what? i had hoped the characters would get a good ending but i was only lying to myself the entire time. i knew this book would be sad but it still crushed me. the first 600 pages were agonisingly slow to me but the last 100 pages... i wouldnt recommend this book to my worst enemy. if you do decide to put yourself through this: pls read the trigger warnings! i dont even remember all the things so im not going to list any 😭 just look them up <3