how do I even rate this book? It was more of an experience than a book. A very confusing and consuming experience. 4.5 stars. The last 0.5 is held behind the fact that this book never ended, which I know is the point, but I still hate that it felt like I was never making any progress with it. I was properly unsettled at points and I know for sure there are layers upon layers that I can delve into if I wish. Even just hearing some of the theories made me excited about the book not long after I finally did finish. I can see myself reading this again in the few years. Maybe I'll try reading in a different way instead of straight through like I did this time.