What a mindfuck of a read….? 

- the first half of this I teetered on dnfing it to be super real (I just really hate when for a majority of a book I am confused and have to be comfortable with not knowing what’s going on.)
- then as the reveals started I really thought I knew exactly what was going on, just to look at goodreads reviews/tiktok breakdowns after finishing and discover literally every perception of what people think this book is about is different??? I find that really interesting & the idea that there isn’t exactly a wrong answer per se & this book showcases a house where the viewer takes from it what they maybe needed?? Or percieved it however they ended up perceiving it??

I truly don’t know how to rate this because on one hand I think it’s just way too smart and abstract for me, and on the other it took me so long to wrap my head around what I thought was going on and then I’ve only found one other individual who viewed it the same as me so I’m even more confused the more I look into video essays & Susanna Clarke’s intentions

‼️SPOILERS AHEAD FOR MY PERCEPTION OF THIS BOOK ‼️

- for me, this book felt like an allegory for trauma and more specifically D.I.D, & an individuals journey both towards and away from themselves and their alters. “Number 16” I felt was positioned as a figure attempting to draw potentially a dormant alter or the the whole body (uncertain) back into the “real world,” though I fear it questionably borders on Copaganda in the end??

But hey, what do I know!! I don’t even really understand what I read, & maybe I’m lacking media literacy ??