I think this just wasn't for me. I got about halfway through before deciding not to continue with it. The road trip parts and the letters in the past were the biggest hindrance to me getting through it. The writing is beautiful though. The parts I liked, I had a lot of underlines and highlights. But after having it for more than 6 weeks from the library,  reading it felt like a chore and I was just bored. Also, I guess if you're dealing with suicidal ideation, maybe stay away from this one.  I'll rate it 2 stars.