Okay so I initially dnf’ed this about halfway through a month ago, but I saw this make so many people’s best-of-2024 lists and I had to retry (mostly because I’m nosey and stubborn). And around page 165 I finally figured it out and can say I enjoyed the ending. The writing was ultimately really well crafted, and it was interesting to see our main character develop (and by develop mostly devolve into thought-loop chaos). I truly had the hardest time getting into it, but do feel the last 20-30 pages made the plotless journey worth it.