so this was basically what would happen if you took bohemian rhapsody, gave it la la land ending, took away almost every happy moment and turned into a book. in other words, it was ugly raw perfection and i am scarred for life.
does it hurt? yes, very much. do i wish it had a happy ending? of freaking course. i will be lying in my bed, not able to sleep, wishing it worked out. do i see there was no other way for it to end? yes, because the ending wasn’t perfect or what i wanted it to be but it was some kind of happy, just not the kind i’m used to