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I loved this second-chance romance! I am a sucker for any kind of book set in the music or acting or any kind of famous industry lol, so this was my catnip! Antonia "Toni" Bennette & Sebastian "Seb" Quigley meet when they are pre-teens in Bordon, Pennsylvania, a small town where Toni is dropped off as a 12-year-old when her mother can no longer take care of her as she pursues a career in music on the road. They develop a close friendship over music and everything else, and decide they will leave Bordon one day to pursue music together, and to get away from their families. However, this dream is short-lived as Seb abruptly leaves one day without any explanation & never comes back. Regardless, Toni has made a name for herself in Philly's indie music scene and auditions for an open spot in the Lillys, as their guitarist Candi heals from an injury. This is when she is unexpectedly reunited with Sebastian Quick (nickname from his last name), who is the Lillys' manager, and they must confront the betrayal Toni felt all those years ago.

This book gives us the dual third-person limited POVs of Seb and Toni, and it is indeed a slow burn! It also felt more like a "fiction" book rather than a capital R romance for me, but that's fine. I loved the story, I rooted for the characters, and I was invested in seeing how things would unfold. I appreciated Seb's explanation for why he left all those years ago; I think we quickly villainize people, and Toni definitely learned to unpack and seek out more nuance depending on the situation!

With the subplot of Toni's parents, that absolutely tugged at my heartstrings. I felt for Toni, because it explained why she was so protective of herself, since she was continuously let down by the two people who were supposed to care for her and look out for her. This ultimately led her to look out for herself, and to not depend on others. I did appreciate the representation of Toni's dad, someone who didn't sign up to be a parent, and didn't know how, but looked out for Toni in his own way. It wasn't enough, and it wasn't the way Toni needed to be loved, but it was a nuanced representation that I appreciated. Not every parent is going to "see the light," admit their wrongs, or even be the parent that their child wants. However, it doesn't make either person the villain, and I appreciated that. 

I am excited to read more in this series, which I believe will focus on a different band member of the Lillys! 

cw: child abuse, misogyny, abandonment, drug abuse, addiction, cancer, emotional abuse, alcohol

It felt like a lot of the plot was happening off-page because we mostly followed the female lead's perspective, which meant the plot felt a bit jumpy. I also thought the portrayal of her parents was contradictory:

her dad is redeemed, saying he was always carrying for her while housing and feeding her minimally, but when her mother claims the same, she is presented unambiguously as the antagonist.